Friday, June 15, 2012


Fact:  I love my family.  They are truly the only thing that matters to me.
Fact:  I am figuring out myself once again on this path we call life.  How many times does one have to 'find' themselves in a span of 70 ish years.  I'm tired of 'finding' myself.  I'm tired of fake people.  I'm tired of feeling that we (in general) always have to one up each other.  I am a simple person living a very simply scheduled life and I don't need to feel like I am always in a competition...this is why I never participate in said competition...but I get sick of seeing everyone else compete.
Fact:  I'm tired.  So very tired.  I don't know if I have ever slept through the night un-interrupted since Taylor was born.  So tired.
Fact:  I miss my Mom.  I wish she lived right by me sometimes.
Fact:  I'm tough.  I act tough.  I give it to you how it is.  I'm rough around the edges.  I'm outspoken.  I'm aggressive.  But most of all, I'm very sensitive.  I just put up a tough exterior.
Fact:  I'm a wreck.  If you see me and my hair is disheveled and my eyes are a little red, don't ask.  Speaking of hair, I have decided that every day should be 'National go without product in your hair day'...has a nice ring to it don't you think.
Fact:  I love hangin with teenage girls.  They are so full of life and so fun to be around.  Their enthusiasm is contagious and they make me feel young.  I just love them.
Fact:  It's hard to accept how some other people deal with things because you deal with those same things differently.  I have learned to always try to see situations from all perspectives and respect how people handle things, but it doesn't make it any easier.  I'm always saying 'to each his own' but sometimes I'm not sure I really feel that way.
Fact:  I know what I know and I believe what I believe but I'm not sure I like the surroundings sometimes.

There are so many things I want to say but can't...
Fact:  I'm not sure I should even post all this...but it's how I feel right now.  And, I needed to write it down and get it out of my head.


Ryan and Amber said...

Fact. The chalk art is stellar. Also fact sometimes ya gotta simmer down and take care of number one. I prescribe a diet coke. A bath and a long night of zzzzzs. Hope you get feeling chipper again soon!

The Belnaps said...

i think venting is totally a good thing..cleanse! Also sometimes i say things that i really think i mean and believe but then I wonder if i really deep down do..and sometimes it's to exhausting to really do some serious soul searching..chin're awesome!

Michelle D said...

You're good to get it out. I appreciate you and your friendship and thoughtfulness. Thanks for being YOU!

Brenda said...

You're more refreshing than Diet Coke!