Hi, it's me again!

Lately I feel as though these are the most common words coming from my mouth...

I happen to be praying ALOT right now...

And each time I pray, I start with..."Hi, it's me again"...

We are on a first name basis now...

He knows my requests by heart...

And, he is helping me cope with my pain...

Oh the PAIN...

Who knew grief could be so physical?...

I cry ALOT...

I cry before I go to sleep most every night...

Then I get into the tub with my special 'relaxing' salts...

They're not really working...

Nothing's really working...

I can't sleep much...

And, I am tired...

My husband's tired too...

Cuz I cry...

ALOT!...

I am soliciting you for your advice...

Other than the praying, I need some more help...

Help for the pain of our loss...

And on the sleep issues...

Help Me...

Please?...

Auntie Amy

Jenner goes 'BONK'...

Apparently going to Church can be hazardous...

Who knew?

Jenner does...

And this is what happens when she decides to stand on the back of a vacant folding chair...

It tumbles down, landing right on top of her and giving her a good goose egg...

A very first for this family...

A Black Eye!

She's a tough little cookie...

She'll be just fine!

Jenner's First Haircut!

So red and so cute...

We went to the DATC to get the kids' haircut and then Jenner wanted one too...

She had a pretty decent rat's nest going on the back of her head so I decided the timing was perfect...

The girl just trimmed her hair all around and made it all the same length...

So today I gelled it up and scrunched it around to get adorable curls out of it...

How cute is that...

Love Love Love...these girls...

I wanted to post about my two little sidekicks today...

Because they bring me so much joy and so much love...

And because I am holding them a little longer than usual...

Maybe more than Jenner would like but too bad for her...

I'm going to keep holding her as long as she'll let me...

Lucky for me, Addy LOVES to be held...

all of the time...

except in the night when she is trying to sleep...

then I have to let go and put her in her own bed...

Sigh...

Jenner loves to help me bake...

Just look at that silly face...

She also loves a good ol' cheeseburger...

She calls McDonald's the 'Hamburger House'...

and declares her love for the 'Hamburger House' each time we drive by it...

My two little Binky Buddies...

They absolutely love eachother so much...

How can you not LOVE that adorable face...

And, that HUGE grin...

Her whole body flex's when she smiles...

And, her hair is coming in RED!!!

My heart is broken right now and I don't know how to deal with that...

I can't get Sarah out of my mind...

If my heart hurts so much...her hurt must be terrible...

I can't even imagine nor do I want to imagine...

But my thoughts won't elude me...

I think of Sarah every waking moment...

I love her dearly and I pray for her constantly...

Constantly...

This pain is too much...

Amazed...

I am amazed at the generousity of some of my 'peeps' for Tyler and Sarah's family...

The human spirit can be so beautiful...

When tragedy strikes, the compassion from others is so soothing...

You have helped me cope and have kept me calm...

I am finding peace...

one day at a time...

I feel of your love and I feel you praying for me...

Thank you!

Viewing and Funeral...

As you can probably imagine...the viewing and funeral was very emotional...Beautiful but emotional...

Sage looked absolutely perfect and so beautiful in her little white dress...

Her face was like a porcelain doll still in it's package and she has and angellic look about her...

Of course, she is an Angel...

And Angel to watch over and protect us...

to teach us and lead us home...

We are so fortunate to have this luxury...

Tyler and Sarah were so brave and so strong...

So many tears were shed and emotions were like that of a roller coster...

Laughter...Joy...Sorrow...Sadness...all of them wrapped up into a 24 hour period...

Each one of Tyler and Sarah's children picked something to put in little Sage's casket...Mr. Potatoe Head, A Nerf Dart, some Lip-Gloss and a Baby Doll...They also prepared the most beautiful words to express their love for little Sage...Where does Big Sister H get her wisdom and strength???...Probably her parents...

At the cemetery we had a balloon launch and it was spectacular...

We are hoping to carry on this tradition every Easter...in Sage's name...

Sage's cousins each prepared a note for her and attached it to gerber daisy...they placed them on her casket for her safe keeping...so precious...

We spent the afternoon reminiscing about little Sage and her strong personality and desire to make everyone around her smile...such a special little girl...

My little family came home and read a special book about death and what happens when you die...sort of our Family Home Evening for this week...

Then it was off to bed...

We were so emotionally and physically tired that I don't remember hitting the pillow...

But I do remember thinking of little Sage and of all the things she has taught me this last week...

I feel so honored to have been her Auntie and to have been a part of her life...her special, perfect life...

I love you Sagie Boo...

Til' next time...

Jenner and Daddy...mesmerized by the balloons...

Jenner and Nammy...she's waiting to put her flower on the casket...

She even said right to Nammy, "I put dis fowder on Sagie's tasket..."

Taylor is also mesmerized by the balloons...

Pay Pal

I just set up a pay-pal account for Sage's family to help them with the burial costs...

It should be much easier now to donate...

Just hit the pay-pal buttom at the top of my blog to donate...

Thank you for your love and prayers...

As of now, you have to go into a Wells Fargo Bank to donate and then use the account number...

7346242451

Sorry for the inconvenience...

This has been so ridiculous...

We just want them to have some help with the burial costs...

Is that too much to ask?

You can visit Little Sage's Obituary...it's beautifully written...

Update...Donate in Sage's name...

Update on Donations...

We have had some issues with the donation account so to make things easier, we will provide you with the account number for your donation...

7346242451

Help Now!

Sage's family is going through the unimaginable right now and we received some really good advice for those who want to help, but don't know exactly what to do.

After tomorrow...you can donate money into a Wells Fargo account that was set up in Sage's name...Just call their number 1-800-869-3557 and mention her name, Sage Barton to donate any amount you would like...

We thank you for your support and for your deep compassion during this experience...

I have read and re-read each of your comments over and over while coping with my emotions, I thank you from the bottem of my heart for loving me and for loving Sage and her family...we feel so special to be so loved and so blessed!

With Love, Auntie Amy

Little Sage at Christmas time...

Sage with her brother and sisters...

Thank You!

Sage Caroline

Prayers were said in Her behalf...

Her family prayed...

Her friends prayed...

People all around heard Her story and prayed...

We prayed so hard and with so much faith...

And Heavenly Father answered...

He needed Her home...

Her mission is with him...

Our MIRACLE didn't happen the way we wanted...and I know there is a MIRACLE in this situation somewhere, but for now I just haven't found it...

She is in Heaven...

And, She is Happy...

Thank you for your thoughts and for your prayers...

Hold your little ones a bit tighter tonight...I know I am!

Love, Auntie Amy

Thank you Sara S. for making this picture beautiful!

The latest...

I have the latest on sweet Sage...and it isn't good!

Two brain scans were performed in the night and her results came back with no brain activity at all...

One more scan at 11:00am this morning to check for that brain activity...

Pray for activity...

Pray for a bump on the screen...

Pray for a reaction from her little soul...

Pray

Really need a MIRACLE at this point!...Keep praying!

Sage update...

Well I just left Tyler and Sarah's house with their other 4 children in the care of Nammy....they needed her so badly tonight.  I tried to hug and kiss on them but I wasn't their Nammy...only she can fill that void.

Little Sage has been put on full life support and her little pulse is only mediocre...the Dr's are doing two brain-scans tonight to see if they can find anything else out...

We have a theory of what happened...

Miss Sage (2) and sister Amanda (4) were upstairs playing when Sage went into a crying fit...she will sometimes pass out when she is having a crying fit...the theory is that when she passed out this time, her little body landed face first onto a toy that supposedly blocked her airway and she wasn't able to come to...

Poor Sarah and Tyler performed CPR on her and Tyler gave her a blessing while the ambulance was on its way...

The rest of the story is a blur...the men worked on her for some time and then life-flighted her to Primary Children's...

And now we only know what I have told you...not a whole lot!

But, we could still use the prayers and the thoughts of concern sent our way!

Thank You!

Auntie Amy

Just this once...

Since writing this post on Monday, our sweet Sage passed away on Tuesday March 2...

You can see the whole story by typing in my blog address...http://www.bartonfamilyco.blogspot.com/...

I have updated several times since this post...

Thank you...

See this beautiful little girl...her name is Sage, and she is my niece. She is 2 years old and is fighting for her life right now. Little Sage was found on her bedroom floor not breathing and without a heartbeat...her small life hangs in the balance and we are asking for a MIRACLE!

I am sending this SOS out there in hopes that you will too pray for our MIRACLE...please pray! And, pray diligently and with much FAITH!

At this point we don't know much...we do know that she is on life support and isn't responding to anything...they're working hard on her at Primary Children's and I know they will do their best! But a little help from all of us wouldn't hurt...so Pray, Pray and Pray some more!

A couple of cuties...

This first one is just to show what Chris has been up to...we finally found some tile that we loved for the backsplash and he spent all day Saturday putting it up...isn't it GORGEOUS!!!

I have an edited one of this picture but couldn't find it...

Love this kid...

and, Love this picture of him!

My new toy!

So this is my new toy and I couldn't be more excited! I have already been playing with it and figured out some new things...you wouldn't know that my focus in college was photography...hahaha! I knew absolutely nothing about cameras until my friend Nicholai came over and spoke to me in a language I could grasp...thanks to her I am learning and figuring things out! It seems that everywhere I go now I am always looking for that 'perfect' spot to take pictures...I am so excited about this!

So, stay tuned for some of my learning experiments to show up...yay!